It’s been a very rough week of brain fog, anxiety, mood swings and insomnia. In acupuncture today we talked about how it’s exactly one week away from a year. She told me how the body remembers and to practice showing myself extra compassion this week. I cried my whole session.
I really thought celebrating a year would be an exciting milestone. Instead it’s bringing up stored trauma and my body is freaking out. I can’t sleep, my appetite is low, my brain fog is so heavy my sight is weird, my tears are ever flowing, my anxiety is through the roof and I just haven’t felt myself. The day I almost died is creeping up and rather than be proud of how far I’ve come, we’ve been hiding inside, cancelling plans, rearranging our apartment in hopes it’ll give us new energy and just sitting in silence.
It’s hard. And I don’t quite have the words to explain all these emotions. We made it! Is mixed with wait what the hell happened and what year is it and why am I not better yet?
But I’m still here. Continually putting one foot in front of the other until I don’t think twice about it. Taking a new huge daily dose of Chinese herbs, loading up on proteins, changing the room I almost died in into my healing reiki/meditation/soul searching room. Somehow someway we made it to this point. And somehow someway we’ll make it to the next.
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: We often think that admitting struggle is a sign of weakness, but we all struggle sometimes. We all get overwhelmed sometimes. We all need help sometimes. Acknowledging this is not a sign of weakness, but struggling alone is a choice to grow weak. *
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I have a huge amount of support and I am truly grateful to all. I've thought that i either give up and accept this is me and all the things i can't do or i keep fighting so i can do them. Who said life was easy it's about trying to make the most of what I have. God has perfect timing; never early, never late. It takes a little patience and it takes a lot of faith but it's worth the wait. ・・・
So what I will be doing from here on out starting September 1st is Educating myself of awareness of that month and selling shirts the color of the awareness month half my proceeds will go towards a organization that supports finding a cure for such illnesses so this is my next step towards being a model for the people to follow and appreciate so I’m just asking the community to support #strokesurvivor
Yesterday’s doctors appointment went ok. Our pediatrician is shocked with how different he is now and said she doesn’t think our NICU team would recognize us anymore, she is very proud of him. She is concerned about a few areas of development but none of those are new areas, he is speech delayed, he does have sensory issues, he’s not walking etc. She said she’s thinking he’s going to need a walker as a safety net to get him walking. She said his self harm is pretty common with speaking delayed kids and that he will likely grow out of it, and she’s not keen on helmets so just keep tossing that pillow under his head or redirect if we can. I’m a bit miffed at our neurosurgeons office, apparently after his scan I was supposed to book an appointment, but no one ever told me that and when I asked about it last time they just gave us the results and said next follow up would be in October. So I called and hopefully someone gets back to me tomorrow and we can get in soon. There is a revised medical report that mentions numerous enhancements in his brain, but they seem pretty unsure exactly what they are, so more imaging likely. But Dom is an outwardly healthy 26lb chunk of love.
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Pia hat ein Bild für meine Tür gemalt, damit ich nicht wieder zu früh abbiege und versuche, in fremde Zimmer zu kommen🤣. Das ist sie im Bonbonregen bei einem Gartenfest 🤷🏻♀️ #stroke#strokesurvivor#strokerehab Sonst ein ruhiger Tag ohne Therapien im #Panzentrum dafür mit freieilligem Training im Stehtisch und am Handlauf und liebem Besuch von Prof. Thomas 😊
Coming up on the 1 year anniversary of the day that forever changed my life. Recovery from stroke takes commitment, persistence, determination. You begin by doing what is necessary, sometimes only what is necessary for basic survival. Gradually you move on to what is possible, remembering each day that which is possible changes. Eventually you are able to do what was once impossible. I still struggle at times and occasionally I return to a day of doing only what is necessary. But that rest leads back to victory, to overcoming, to life.