Struggling to sleep tonight again... seems like my anxiety is spiking at night. Tonight it could be down to the essay that I wrote 😂, made me feel great after but then the anxiety kicks in of 'oh god I've opened myself up to criticism'.. but again that's just another thing I'm learning to deal with in... you guessed it, therapy 😂😜😉. Harry is also awake, we've hit a weird stage with him at the moment. He's gradually getting out of naps but some days he stays awake until bedtime, goes to sleep for 4-5 hours and then wakes up full of beans so it's almost like he's having later naps. Monkey!! I'm hoping he'll gradually fall asleep again and not have to come in with us 😣. Anyway, I've been insta-stalking again lol... the lucky people tonight are @thatcrazycouple_swjourney lol. I've taken screenshots of some of their meals to hopefully copy. Have a look over there, some great ideas for meals and syns!
Loving finding all these inspirational people on here 😍💖💙 Gonna try and sleep now that I've wrote another essay 😂😂😂 #slimmingworlduk#swsupport#inspiration#swinstas#myslimmingworldjourney#parenting#cantsleep#anxiety#mentalhealthawareness
1 hour ago
This used to be soooo much easier BUT glad I can still do it!!! Someone come flip shit with me.
What Sundays are made for! Off to bed, dreaming of breakfast 😋🤤🥓🥓🥓🍳🍳
2 hours ago
I felt like I needed some motivation tonight. I needed to look at my own advice, practice what I preach and stop dicking around... So I read my blogs. I went back to the beginning. My posts too... I'm ready.
**** LONG HONEST POST **** As most of you know on here, every Tuesday i attend CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) as I have anxiety, depression, self esteem/confidence issues plus a whole bunch of other issues but we won't go into those 😂. What has been pinpointed as one of biggest issues is self compassion and my lack of it. Not telling myself well done for the positive things that I've achieved or remembering why I may need that bit of down time when I've had a shaking episode, not saying "you got through the day mama" when the kids have been tough and I want to break down crying because I felt weak against them but instead criticising every thing I did that didn't go right or focusing on the negatives that may have happened that day and probably the most relevant one on here atm, the one that got me onto this 'rant', being hard on myself for over eating or gaining on the scales.
As a society we can't help ourselves but pick out our faults and what we've done wrong but why do we do it? It doesn't make us feel any better... if anything it pushes us further down. I wouldn't dare say to anyone else what I tell myself when I'm having a bad day so why am I letting myself tell myself?
Slowly but surely I'm learning through the help of CBT that I can't keep going like this, I have to learn to see the good things, the achievements otherwise I'll never get to that target because I've told myself I'm a rubbish, over eating fatty who can't achieve my goal.
I'm not saying I'm cured... far from it, I'll be putting myself down again probably tomorrow BUT I am learning to nip it in the bud because its not helpful, it's not making me happy, it's affecting every day relationships and it needs to stop.
So the point of this was to basically say if you go off track, if you've had a shite day with the kids and you need to comfort eat... do it if you need to but don't give yourself a ton of abuse before or after doing it. Before you do it, you could take 10 seconds, breath and think why you're reaching for the biscuit tin and if you still want to do it after then do but please don't be hard on yourself... be kind to yourself, have more self compassion...carried on below