On the left - March this year (UK size 18) happy and thriving. And on the right, October (UK size 14) also happy and thriving
I loved myself on the left and I love myself on the right
My happiness is not defined by the size of my body & my physical appearance does not define me and who I am
But the me on the left was in a vicious cycle of emotional reliance on food whereas the me on the right is learning to FINALLY have a healthy relationship with what I fuel my body with
The me on the left woke up in pain every day and had a sore back almost constantly (I always blamed my boobs 😂) I couldn't walk up the slightest of hills without struggling to breathe, I dreaded going anywhere with a lot of steps. I spent a lot of time hiding how uncomfortable my body was (not how I emotionally felt in myself but how my BODY felt)
The me on the right can go to sleep without pain, can walk up stairs with no issue and tackle hills like a boss 😂. I'm learning to listen to my body and what it needs and find it craves movement every day
I love both these girls and both these girls are worthy of love. My before and during pictures inspire me to keep moving for a positive future. I no longer fear immobility because of a steady trajectory of weight gain. I've broken the cycle and I am proud. The physical work has been hard at times but the mental shift has been harder, but I will keep striving to be healthier and make better choices ❤️💪
Let this information drive you to be your best.Realize as human beings that we all have incredible potential to do great things. Don’t let fear hold you back. Break the chains, cut the branches that you may be sitting on and remove those people from your life that want you to stay the same. Free yourself so that you may fly to your destiny. #liveyourbestlife#love#selflove#friends#motivate#inspire#gratitude#empathy#compassion
Wow thank you @santacruzmusicfestival .. what a wonderful weekend of Music, Art, and Dancing. Big ups and Love to all the beautiful Souls That joined Chaz from @vibrationalsouls Pool side on Sunday morning for his World music DJ set with Live native American Flutes and Singing bowls.
I had a blast doing sound mixing and engineering for Street light records on Saturday and Sunday. I get so inspired by all the young bands and the difference in sounds & music.. keep it up.. Plus if your in the Santa Cruz area you can pick up our new sound healing album - Above and Below by Ancestral Rhythms
In the world music section of @streetlightrecordssantacruz
lots of love out to my California peepz and Family.. I hope to be back really soon.. learn more about my music and healing sounds on my website @ soundscrystalsandvibrations.com.. #spiritualconnection#soundscrystalsvibrations#soundhealing#santacruz#selflove#singingbowls#scmf2019#crystals#community
You’ve got love on the brain but it’s different than before. For the past couple months, you’ve been focused on your own healing and growth and it’s caused you to feel more sensitive and act more gentle with people or in situations that use to trigger you. Did you ever think you’d get here this fast?
It feels like some of you might be experiencing feelings of contentment about where you are in life and it’s surprising to you and your loved ones. Give yourself more credit because you brought yourself to this healthy place. It’s clear as day that you are emotionally evolving at high speeds! What has transformed for you in the last few weeks that was bugging you for years?
With Scorpio season here and Mercury RX quickly approaching, I feel like some of you will naturally go through this season without feeling stunted by it’s energies. Maybe less anxiety, confusion and feelings of being misunderstood? Mostly because you’ve made it top priority to meet yourself where you are and you’ve adopted a spiritual routine. And because of it, you will be experiencing firsthand what it feels like to transmute pain in your relationships 🖤
🔮: Tattoo Tarot
I'm feeling really good today.
I met with my new therapist for the first time today. She was really nice, and she specializes in supporting adults who grew up with parents that were unavailable and the behaviors that come from surviving in those environments. .
That was something that struck me when she said it- that you did what you had to do to survive those conditions. I've followed all kinds of psychologists on IG, read this exact thing, and yet when my therapist told me that it affected me more deeply. Because now it is real. It is mine. My truth. .
I'm excited to work with her. I am relieved to know that i am taking authentic action to heal through the wounds that i've carried since childhood. To work with a professional to create real tools that I can use to grow through this pain is something I am incredibly grateful for, and something that I wish for anyone who needs the same support. .
I speak openly and honestly about my struggles with mental health because I want to remind you that you are not alone. You are not isolated in your pain and there is support available to you if you need it. I want you to see that there are a variety of people struggling- not the bullshit that they depict in media. Regular ass people like you and me are struggling. I also want to clearly state that just because you see a therapist doesn't mean something is wrong with you. It doesn't make you less than. Maybe you have a specific issue you need help working through? Maybe you just need to check in every now and again? Or maybe something else entirely? And that is A OKAY. If you had a broken leg, would you just suffer in silence and hope that it just goes away? Probs not. So don't do it to your mind. .
WE ARE NOT BRAIN DOCTORS. WE ARE NOT BORN WITH ALL OF THE ANSWERS ON HOW THE MIND WORKS. THAT IS LITERALLY WHY THERE ARE PROFESSIONALS, PEOPLE ♥ GO TO THEM FOR YOUR QUESTIONS. GO TO THEM FOR SUPPORT. GO TO THEM FOR WHATEVER YOU NEED.
. Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk. .
This can be a job, a relationship, a friendship, family. Never settle for nothing but the best in everything that you do n who you keep around you! #selfrespect#selflove keep your head up never stop till you get to the top #imallthewayup#stayhungry#faith I💜my family!
"How are you?"
"I'm okay" "I'm fine" .
"How do you FEEL today?"
"Well today I'm feeling sad"
"I feel so tired" "I feel overwhelmed" "I feel exhausted" "I feel like a bad mom" "I feel off"
Ask your friends and family "How do you feel today?" Instead of "How are you?" You will get a more elaborated answer and perhaps you can offer them some help.
Ask your mom friends with kids and those who just had a babies how they are feeling.
Ask your friends, family members and co workers who are more quiet than usual how they are feeling. .
Ask your friends who have been working crazy hours how they are feeling. .
Ask and Listen and if you can..lend them a hand.💕
3 minutes ago
as adults we have to be self-aware and it’s important to recognize now that if you have been tied to a dysfunctional or toxic family/ family members that you have the power to change how they relate to you now. Even though you may be the products of their parenting styles, you always have the power to change and to learn to accept and give new kinds of love.
6 minutes ago
We frequently praise others and tell them they’re doing enough, but we do not do this nearly enough for ourselves. We’re often harsh on ourselves and tell ourselves things we would never say to someone close to us. I encourage you to stop and think for a minute - Would you say it to your best friend, your parent, or your partner? .
Your relationship with yourself if the longest, most meaningful and intimate relationship you will ever have. Make sure you’re being kind to yourself. 🌸✨💕