PLEASE READ:- @a_feral_danimal wrote to me in May because of a close friend @_amylclark suggested he applied for the #Scars Portrait series and I’m glad she did. Daniel’s message read like the plot of a Hollywood Film... Daniel’s initial outline to his journey... As for the journey; I was toward the end of a progressive disease of alcoholism without hope and resigned to drink myself to death. It didn’t work though, not even after rolling a car at 100mph having half my face ripped off, and a whole list of injuries I can send.
I was brought to one of the most amazing hospitals, Cottage Hospital of Santa Barbara. They didn’t know if I’d survive the night. Spent 3 weeks and five or six surgeries in the hospital. They held the space for a psychic change. I knew my drinking was over (despite how hard headed I am :)), and the obsession to drink was lifted. I’ve been sober over 18 months (22 months now) and hopefully I only have another 8 months before I’m finished with surgeries. I’ve literally had 5 surgical procedures in the last thirty days. Four of those were due to the drunk driver that hit me November 23 of last year. Adding a back injuries to my buffet. But through this last month especially (had my left eye removed May 3rd), I’ve learned that my happiness is measured by my level of gratitude just like my daily reprieve from drinking is contingent upon my spiritual maintenance. For that I truly am grateful and my life looks nothing like it did before 11/12/17 when the supernova of miracles exploded in my face... THIS IS JUST A TEASER with much more to follow from his series as we’ll reveal more from Daniel. #Mrelbank#Beauty#Portrait#Skin#Surgery#Survivor#EyePatch#USA#Hasselblad#London@hasselblad@nickwooster
To anyone thinking about removing their implants - you got this.
Yes, it’s scary but your worth more than a set of boobs. You deserve your health and to be the energetic, vibrant being that you are. .
When I think about the process, my feelings, uncertainty and pain - I STILL CRY. Every time. When I journal, I cry. 7 years of thinking I was crazy and hopeless. It reminds me of how lucky I am now. Some people have to wait a lifetime.
I’m writing this because someone was asking about my tattoo, and i was embarrassed because i was worried they saw my scar. People will say hurtful, dumb shit to you. Sometimes it will get to you more than others. .
But luckily one rational thought will make it disappear. We are feminine without big toxic bags in our chest. Awareness changes everything, applied to any situation.
You’re amazing without boobs, a butt, a perfectly snatched nose, massive lips, a six pack and whatever is making you feel less than.
One time I went on a date in London. After taking off my jacket and exposing the scars on my arms, he put his drink down and said “you didn’t tell me there was something wrong with you.” He then pretended to go to the bathroom and left without finishing his drink. I felt deep shame. What about my scars made me untouchable, and in my mind, unlovable? The harmful stigmas contributing to the idea that those with disabilities are incapable of having sex or relationships is a result of our treatment in the media. Besides “does your terminal skin condition that causes open wounds hurt”, “can you have sex” is the question I get asked the most. In public, to my face, online, whatever- because my body is so visible, people feel like they’re entitled to know everything about it. I felt ashamed watching many movies and television shows as a teenager beginning to date - if there was a person with disabilities shown, they would no doubt be the butt of a joke, usually a sex joke. I, like many others, took this to mean that I was not meant to be found attractive, that sex was meant for those with bodies different from mine. How could I view myself as sexy if my body was a joke on tv? It’s not easy. My boyfriend of two years will occasionally still get comments about me that make my cheeks turn red with shame. But I can’t see my body as something negative anymore, so I won’t. Sexuality is apart of everyone’s lives, even people who are disabled. They coexist even if the media won’t acknowledge that in a way that isn’t demeaning to the person with a disability and overly praising their partner. I feel sexy because I like myself and know my worth, and yes because I take pictures like this with the help of @jemimasara and @sam_chinomona. Somethings gotta give with the media coverage of this stuff. In the meantime, I will keep wearing my boob shirts in front of the camera to further the discussion of sexuality and disabilities, wearing lipstick as red as my scars. But in the meantime I have an essay on Anglo-Norman to write. .
According to the Collins dictionary, Kintsugi (also known as kintsukuroi) is, “a Japanese method for repairing broken ceramics by using a special lacquer mixed with gold, silver, or platinum.” This method, instead of trying to hide the cracks and make it look as close to its original appearance as possible, makes the cracks part of the piece itself, which causes the piece to have more value and even more beauty than it did before. These cracks don’t derive from the beauty of the piece; instead, they add a unique touch and allow the piece to shine brighter than it did before. This practice teaches that beauty can come from even the most broken places.
Brokenness can take a huge toll on us. At a certain point in our lives, something happens that makes us feel like we were a delicate bowl that was smashed on the ground into unrecognizable pieces. We felt as though we were unrepairable, and that we couldn’t go on because of our brokenness. We felt unlovable and worthless, because who would want to try and take our broken pieces and make them into something beautiful? Friends, I’d like to remind you today that just like the broken bowls that have repaired with gold, you are beautiful in a way that only you can be, and your scars that you’ve obtained are reflections of how strong you have become through the challenges you have faced. You do not deserve to be thrown away and forgotten; your story is valuable. You are not less because you were broken; you are valuable, special, and unique. .
Hey, friends! This post was inspired by a discussion I had in my small group I meet with each week, and the imagery from that is what I wanted to close with. God is a potter, right? He crafts each one of us in His image, and we’re such beautiful creations of His. However, when we go out into the world and face hardships and such, we get hurt, cracked, and broken. God doesn’t look at us and throw us away because we’re broken; instead, if we trust in Him, He fills in our cracks with His goodness, grace, and love, and we are a new, even more beautiful creation.
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Microneedling using the best pen 🖊 device #skinpen
Microneedling is a procedure designed specifically to invoke the healing response in your skin by causing microtrauma in a targeted way.
Using a pen with a small head that contains 10+ needles, it vibrates at high power, and at a certain depth, to pierce the superficial layer of your skin thousands of times over a few seconds.
1. Improves the quality and texture of your skin (immediately)
2. Reduces pock marks and scarring
3. Reduces black heads
4. It will help treat acne and cystic acne
5. Exfoliates the skin
6. Makes you look younger by reducing fine lines and wrinkles
7. Reduces hyperpigmentation and evens skin the skin tone
The picture shows during the treatment.
If you don’t do shit like this are you even parents? ☀️ Yes this is funny🤣but since you’re here let’s talk:
✨Beauty has no size.
✨This is a picture of a miracle.
✨My body has given me the greatest love I’ve ever known, for this I embrace my scars.
✨My self-talk about my body should reflect how I want to talk to my daughter about hers.
✨This is my 3rd pregnancy but I’ll only have two babies to show for it.
✨If you’re in a dark season, I hope this gives you hope that things won’t stay dark forever.
✨We must be more gentle with ourselves, because without tenderness, we are nothing.
✨Just take the damn picture, even if *insert negative self-talk*. You’ll be glad you have the memory.☀️