Today AJ and I spent 7 hours at a labor/deliver class where we went over everything! A full day focused on the biggest day of our life and then the biggest change we can imagine.
It was definitely helpful but emotionally and physically EXHAUSTING.
I appreciated the nurses honesty about child birth and being new parents. And at the end of the day I won't know anything until I'm in it.
But I've been learning about mindsets so much I can't help but think to apply that to delivery and parenting.
I don't think I'll have to be overwhelmed and stressed and emotional because I'm a new mom. If I am then that's okay! But I'm going into it feeling supported and positive.
Will it be the glamours life AJ and I are used to having? No. When I say glamours I mean living life just for the two of us. Traveling, vacations, sleeping in, spontaneous days are all things we took for granted, it was normal for us!
This picture is from our trip in Hawaii with some of our best friends. It was a trip of a lifetime for me, so much fun and definitely represented the single married life. 🧡
Life will be SO DIFFERENT. But I can't help to think I'll feel whole and content being a mom. Honestly for me it's not even about being a mom. It's about meeting the little princess I've been carrying around for 7 months.
I was NEVER in a hurry to be a mom. But carrying around a little human you and the love of your life made makes your heart melt. 😭
Life will be different but I'm ready. Don't get me wrong, I am totally still dreaming of trips to Hawaii with our friends and for the day baby can stay with grandparents. 😂🤗
But my heart also craves laying on the couch for hours snuggling the gift God is letting me grow in my belly. 🤗
I never knew what the true meaning of love was until you came into this world and turned it inside out. Sometimes I stare at you and tears start streaming down my face because I've never felt this feeling before. This intense feeling that if anything ever happened to you I would die. The feeling of wanting to protect you, keep you mine, little and with me forever but also not hold you back from everything your capable of and your capable of so much. The world, my world is yours babyboy. My stomach turns like a washing machine of so many mixed emotions. Fear, excitement, fulfillment, stress, and responsibility. Its my job to teach you to be a decent human-being, a contributing member of society. Your so pure and innocent and I don't want you to lose that, I don't want this cruel world to spoil you. I want to protect you with every inch of my being. Just know I am and always will be your number one fan. I will always back you. I will tell you when you are doing wrong and celebrate you when you do great and I just know deep down in my soul that you are going to do great things my love ❤ my love for you will always conquer any and everything. #brailynlyricbarker#babybarker#babyboy#babyfever#babylove#baby#babysofinstagram#babys#babyface#babysmiles#babycute#firstbaby#firstbornchild#firstborn
🌈 Phew. A handful of you already know and have known for a hot minute now. Whereas I’ve kept everyone else in the dark. I kind of wanted to not post anything throughout and just be like boop. There’s a baby 😂. It’s more tiring hiding it that not honestly. Trent @yorktrogers and I are happy to announce our rainbow baby will be joining us in 2020. Can you guess how far along I am? I won’t be revealing the name until birth (we will see.. I have loose lips) and those who know please don’t reveal it for me 😬 and the gender will be revealed soon! Leave your guesses below. Thank you to all of those who have helped me throughout and supported me when I’ve been down or worried about this one. Everyday is a battle with anxiety when you have had a previous loss. Constantly worrying about whether a pain is me losing baby, looking to see if there’s blood (TMI SORRY) after every wipe, is baby supposed to be kicking?! I’m very excited, but scared to be a mom, truly a blessing. At 26 no less (that’s young to ME, please don’t take any offense!). Can’t wait to show you guys all the pics I’ve taken while hiding it, and be able to embrace this new belly of mine. Stretch marks, big areolas, gas 😂 the whole 9. So happy that everything has gone well so far. I promise I’ll still be mainly posting about beauty, hair etc! But you’ll see me bumping a bit as well - especially during our baby shower, my maternity shoot, etc! Any questions, I’ll answer (so long as it’s not something I haven’t revealed yet haha). 🌈 peep my rainbow hair clips + rainbow shadow though ahha! Also, these balloons were so hard to shoot with. I was SKRESSED. They kept popping and were so loud when they did smh. Also, my anxiety is a little high announcing this right now lol lol! 🌈 📸: @meritoriousmedia •
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It’s hard to beat a good jean jacket in your wardrobe. They are perfect on a summer night and layered over a sweater or blouse in the fall. I’ve pulled together some favorites, including the oversized one I’m wearing here, which btw is only $35. Head to my @liketoknow.it profile for the links. #liketkit http://liketk.it/2F7NF